It's one of those things that you kinda knew was going to happen, but at the same time, it was something that seemed so unlikely to happen at the same time. It's such a scary world now when there's ebola in New York along with the threat of terrorism. I remember having fire drills and shelter drills in elementary school and enjoying the fact that we were taking a break and missing some class time, but now being the teacher in charge of a classroom when we're having a lock down drill is frightening. It makes me think twice about the idea of having a baby because it just seems so crazy.
I know in my mind that God is sovereign, but I can't help the human side of me that just sees all of this and worries about the fact that the world is getting worse. Whether we end up having our own kids or not, I know I have a responsibility to the kids in my classroom. I will love and protect them as if they were my own.