Wednesday, May 14, 2014

When We Said "I Do": Part IV

Being an overly anxious person who worried about the major and minor things in life is one of the reasons why I wasn't looking forward to our wedding day. I don't like new experiences and get really nervous about having to deal with them for the first time. I remember how I still got nervous for the first day of school even after teaching for a few years! The worries do tend to make it difficult to eat because I just lose my appetite entirely, but I know that if I don't eat anything, I will feel faint later on so I force myself to down a few bites of a bland item.

I was anticipating the anxiety the morning of the wedding and figured I wouldn't be able to eat until the ceremony was over. However, the strangest thing happened as I woke up extremely early to get my hair and makeup done. I felt fine! It was the oddest calm that I have ever felt when I should have been on edge! The only other time I was at peace like that was before my cholecystectomy, but I knew I was being covered in prayer the day I was to have my good ol' gallbladder removed.

It really was weird that as I sat in the kitchen getting all girly, I was actually willing to eat! My parents had purchased bagels and had cream cheese and avocado. I believe I've mentioned it here before, but due to my slight intolerance to lactose, I started smushing avocado to put on bagels after reading about it in an old issue of Reader's Digest. It kind of stuck and even my family does it now too! It was just the perfect thing to munch on.

Being able to EAT the morning of the wedding!

I know it's not a very attractive picture, but this actually became one of my favorite pictures just because I liked that my being able to eat was captured! Plus, I think my bridesmaid and cousin Nikki in the back is quite adorable with the rollers in her hair as she opened the fridge for a drink.

I have to say that I also really like the little hoodie that I wore the morning of my wedding too! I think I purchased it either at Walmart or JCPenney years ago. It was one of my favorite buys, and I actually used it as my light jacket at our church's retreat in July 2007. I just thought it'd be fun to post this picture on the last day of retreat when Howard and I were becoming really close friends once again after we broke up the year before. This is why Tuscarora really was a great place for hubs to propose because we really did have so many memories there.

Using it as my top on wedding morning was practical because then I didn't have to worry about taking off a t-shirt that might mess up my hair after it was done and it had some sentimental value as well because of the above picture. Even now that picture makes me smile!

(Read Part I, Part II, and Part III of the series)


  1. We make Morgan smushed avocado on toast thanks to you! I always think of you when we give it to her. :)

    1. Yum! Hope she likes it! Take a pic next time :)